Trippy as hell… seductively soothing. Big cheers to Evenings.
Kadang hati mu ingin sesuatu yang pijar serasa siksaan rindu, tapi akhirnya ternyata itu hanyalah nafsu.
Today has been tiring but interesting and I think I’m ready for it to be 2016 / I’ve cried so much and slept so little in the past few weeks / Haven’t done nearly as much reading as I thought I would in my downtime but I did read somewhere once that “If you get to sleep beside the person you love every night you are one lucky fuck” but I feel like I no longer have the capacity to make this person happy or contented / I got so upset today so I took a quick cold shower, fed my cats and went back to sleep / My heart’s heavy and light, I hate everything right now and I would like not to exist for a while please / I miss the ocean… I feel like spending most of days off in the park but I haven’t been able to do cos all I’ve done’s crying / I made a new “friend” who seems to be down for weird / wild adventures and with …
The music video plays into boring clichés but holy shit, Black Atlass?! With lyrics that are as haunting as the melody, I can only swim through this periods of rushed feeling and his passive/aggressive ethereal voice… aah.
Berpeganglah dengan pendirian yang kukuh, meski pikiranmu semakin buntu, sampai pada saat hidup ini berlalu.
…bukan aku sengaja berjalan menjauh membentang jarak di antara kita, tapi kau juga pergi begitu saja tanpa pernah berkata apa.
Meski kau belum bisa menghapus segala rasa dan kenangan, ketahuilah olehmu bahwa hidup tidak melulu soal kebahagiaan… suka duka itu kan sebagian dari hidup, dan kadang hanya dengan meninggalkan baru kau bisa benar-benar hadir.
I’ve become well acquainted with the wry and wonderful “What ifs…” in the past couple of months.
Sometimes people we really love will really disappoint us… I am trying to not be that person.
I am now, more than I’ve ever been, looking to put this small but horrendous chapter in my life behind me as I instead look forward to the future.